Pretty sure I woke up this morning in a parallel universe. I mean, everything was technically the same and I couldn't really point out any meaningful differences in my life, except for a number of odd interactions. Finally when Quinn looked at me over dinner in complete seriousness and totally unprompted says, "I really should be making my own lunches." I thought, "Sure, why not? And let's just apply for college while we're at it. Where did I wake up this morning?"
I was reading in Exodus about Israel's journey from Egypt, and I never quite realized before that an alternate route through the land of the Philistines existed (check out the end of Exodus 13). By leading the Israelites to the Red Sea, God was leading them to an apparent dead end. It seems that the ten plagues weren't sufficient. God wanted to make sure the Israelites knew that they had no part in their own deliverance. Then when the people are stuck and see Pharaoh coming, they cry out to Moses, who in turn cries out to God, and God replies, "Why do you cry out to me?"
Um... hello? You led us to a dead end and Pharaoh's chasing us. Thought that was obvious, God.
So God rescues them and then the Egyptian chariots get stuck in the mud. I mean, what a great picture. The most technologically advanced culture of the time is chasing the Israelites with their fancy schmancy chariots that no one can beat, and God takes them out with a little mud. Gotta love his sense of humor, except when it's aimed at me, that is.
And I was reminded of Psalm 46. You should go read it now. The mountains are falling into the ocean, the earth is melting, wars are raging, and he commands us simply to behold and be still. I suppose that's where I feel like I am, standing on the edge of the chaos and simply beholding.
So as I was beholding Quinn trying to make his PB&J with what he considered the appropriate peanut butter to jelly ratio, I felt like today was a beholding day. I've spent a couple weeks beholding the depth of my sin and powerlessness to change myself, and today I felt I was beholding something a little different, only I'm not quite sure what He's up to.